HAHAHA! hi.
i thought i was going to sleep. but i don't feel like sleeping. there's nothing on FB now since like everyone is asleep. except for Jasper who is still online. ahahahha!
hmm, what rubbish should i talk about now... let me think. okay. i have decided.

so, for you guys all your MYEs are all over and you guys can relax until you get back your results somewhere nextweek. but for me, i don't have Midyears, i only have common Test, so... my CTs ended on tuesday and on tuesday, i started to get back my papers. and trust me, i am NOT happy at all with my results. at first when i got them back, i wasn't very sad, because i thought "hey, it's just like 2 subjects, i'm sure the others will be much better" but then as i began to get more and more of my results back, the "other subjects" that i had left to do better in became smaller and smaller. and by the end of the week, the only paper i hadn't gotten back was Social Studies.  my results aren't good at all, if you asked me what happened, i really don't know. i really really don't, i did believe Daddy for good results, i even saw myself getting A1s for most of my subjects, i studied, i prayed for His wisdom to be over me during my exams, but then, what happened? why did i get this kinds of results back? and if i were to compare my results to my friend's results, it isn't that bad  (i mean, most of us will compare our results to our friends and if they did worse that you then you'll feel as though you did very well), but i don't want to compare my results to my friends and use their results as a scale for me to see whether i did well or not, i only wanted to use my scale, the scale that i had given to myself, the A1 scale. i know in sec school, it's somewhat hard to get A1s, but i just had this knowing inside of me that i would get A1s, and 2 level sessions ago, when Jay just casually said to me "Abby, your A1s are yours because Jesus has already paid for them", to me it felt as if i was flying in heaven or smth because it was like a double confirmation that i WAS going to get my A1s. But when i was faced with reality, instead of getting my A1s, i didn't get any, i got ONE A2 for english and the rest where Bs and Cs, and maybe Ds, i felt as if my entire world came crashing down and for a split second i said "so much for believing for my A1s". and for most of yesterday, i didn't know what to do, i was just so confused.
But today, it was as if Daddy is using different people to tell me that i should continue believing and no matter what, he's plan for me is good. for Pre-Service, went to the "sea of Galilee, where Rachel and Ariel shared about their experience in Israel last year and how even though Rachel couldn't go into the JC she wanted, Daddy put her in another JC and she is so happy where she is and she knows that there is where Daddy wants her to be. then, during service, Pastor Joe preached about being "well able to overcome the problems in our lives", and after service at Koufu, where Jay spoke about Visualization.
so it's like, continue to visualize your A1s, you will get it because you are WELL ABLE to overcome all your exams, and even though at the end of the day, you might not get what you really hoped for, continue believing in his goodness and wherever He puts you, he will surely prosper you there.

so i'm just going to continue to Believe Daddy for my A1s because his supply in heaven is surely much greater than the A1s i need.
and as for what my parents will say and do when they see my result slip, i don't know what else i can do besides asking Daddy for favour.

okay if you don't get anything i just typed, it's okay, because i just typed whatever that came into my head i don't even know if i made proper sentences.
I just had to let all these out of my system because i haven't had time or don't really want to share this with anyone. so i just typed it ALL here. i'm going to get Jay's kind of results, from this CTs, i'm going to do better and better and for Olevels, A1s here i come.
HAHAHA
and same goes to all of you, continue listening to his word, meditate on it, the more your spend time meditating, the better your results will be (doesn't sound right because it's like if i spend more time with Daddy, then i'll have less time for studying, but remember, Daddy's ways are different from the ways of the world). so spend time in his word and you will see your results getting better and better until you reach the greatest battle O Levels and you will conquer it just like how David Killed Goliath, easy and smooth. HEHEH!

okay, i shall go sleep now.
goodnight.

till next time
-ABBY KU KHOO